Recently

2023.09.02, not sure what to write about—before I knew it, it was already September.

Everything is moving forward steadily in sync with time, and the weather is gradually getting cooler.

2023 is already 3/4 gone. I wonder what I’ve actually been doing over these past 9 months.

I’ve been trying hard to learn something new, yet I feel like I haven’t truly mastered anything. It’s as if I’m stuck in a vicious cycle of learning, forgetting, and relearning.

I feel like I’ve done a lot, yet at the same time, nothing seems to have been done well.

As the weather cools down, I often feel exhausted and drowsy, as if I can never get enough sleep. Everything starts to feel sluggish, and I don’t feel like doing anything at all.

I don’t want to think about anything either. I’m gradually turning into a couch potato. When I try to study, I just want to slack off—completely unmotivated and unable to focus.

I’m in a half-awake, half-asleep state. All I want now is to work hard to change this situation.

Photography

On weekends, I often get a strong urge to grab my camera and go out shooting.

But recently I’ve slowly become lazy—photos stay in the camera for ages.

Only after a long while do I finally transfer them out, saving them for those boring moments when I can pull them up, listen to music, and edit colors (one of life’s great pleasures 🥰).

Unfortunately, the weather lately hasn’t been great for photography, and my skills aren’t that good either. But the key is to shoot more, learn more, and practice more.

My camera feels like a teaching tool, showing me how to see the world even when there's no lens in front of my eyes.

Studying

Yesterday I came back to school and noticed a fresh batch of new students arriving. In the blink of an eye, I’ve become a sophomore.

Looking at this semester’s courses, they’re all major-related. I’m quite interested in Vue and Bootstrap in Action—hope I can get off to a good start.

Currently, there’s nothing particularly noteworthy in my studies. I’m still quite interested in frontend development and plan to dive deeper into it.

But I feel my progress has stalled, and I’ve slightly lost my sense of direction.

Gaming

There’s no new game I’m eager to pick up. In fact, I even quit Honor of Kings, which I’d played for 7 years, at the start of last semester.

Right now, Naraka: Bladepoint is my only casual pastime. Not sure why, but that strong urge to play games is just… gone.

Games now feel truly optional to me. I can’t find that old joy of teaming up with friends like I used to.

Closing Thoughts

After drifting away post-2021, I’ve once again returned to hexo. After endless tinkering, unless something unexpected happens, this will likely be my platform going forward.

Some friends might wonder: why does the sidebar say the site has been running for over 2200 days, yet there are so few articles?

That counter starts from the day I created my very first blog—the first time I ever stepped onto the internet. I’ve changed formats and styles multiple times since then.

Over the years, I’ve lost data many times. Though some backups still exist, I don’t feel like going through the hassle anymore. A new blog, a fresh start~